i dont know why, but these stanzas of the song "journey" describes my feelings very aptly. i think too much modern lit and 《茶馆〉have made me excessively emotional. a very big thank you to PPY and ZX who stood by my side quietly. and not forgetting mum who has been so encouraging! its not that i dont wanna share my troubles, its just that i really dont know how to express my thoughts verbally.

"It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe

Many days I've spent Drifting
on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause it's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on Calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause it's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you To you "

quote and unquote.tear that facade off.

i'm still in a dilemma whether to quite H3.
no, i'm actually very sure that i wanna quit and its jus a matter of time.
but the teacher has advised us to think through it again before telling her our final decision after block test. haii. 垂死挣扎。

yup. on a higher note, i wanna thank God for placing many beautiful people in my life who are there to make me SMILE.