I'm troubled and i'm not at all happy. many things kept running through my mind and i'm emotionally burdened. I dislike separation- i detest it, i hate it violently!

Dear Phyllis:
the thought of you leaving college really saddens me. Please, reconsider it alright? you were always there for the clique and I really appreciate your friendship and concern. I cannot let it go. yes, i may sound selfish and stupid here, but the clique would sincerely hope to see you stay.you were the one who pulled me outta my comfort zone when i was indulging in self-pity during the second in-take. you taught me how to care for a friend and what love for a friend is really like.
In case you didnt know, or perhaps i've never had the chance to tell you, I've been really dependent on you for the few months! you added spieces into my dull dark life! (thats alliteration right?) i'll never forget the times when you faithfully carried my bag when i had difficulty crossing the bridge, the times when we teased you about jackie and the many bus-rides home! last but not least, your raffles cutie! People say that it is impossible to find true friends in JC, but i guess you've proven them all wrong. that was a generalisation i suppose. Please- think twice. but whatever your decision, the clique will always be there for you! =))

Dear Diana:
alright. i know you're not leaving. but you're not feeling well eh? get well soon alright. drink more water and we shall persuade phyllis to stay on!we'll go to sakae another day when you're feeling better!

Alright, so much so about this. I'm also troubled cos i've got to make a decision- a tough one i have to say. my mediacorp attachment clashes with the OCIP meeting and i'm in a dilemma.

not going for mediacorp attachment would mean that:
-i've lost a golden opportunity
-miss out on loads of fun
-letting go a learning experience
-being able to go for class chalet cos the dates clashes too!

not going for OCIP meeting would mean that:
-i'm an irresponsible fellow
-i'll not really understand whats going on for subseuqnet meeting
-i'll most probably let my teammates down (cos its teamwork afterall)
-i get a chance to go for the attachment!
-i'll miss 2 whole weeks of meeting cos the attachment last for 2 weeks
-it'll relfect that i do not have a sense of commitment.

after much whining and constant moaning to seowling, shang yi and huay han, i'm still in a state of confusion. yq told me to attend the meeting while lsl told me to go for the attachment. mum encouraged me to take up the responsibilty to attend meetings while aunt advised me to go ahead with the attachment. i'm vexed! and I cant even discuss this issue with my friend who is also involved, cos she has already made up her mind. its me! its left with me now- yes, i'm fickle minded and I dont make quick decisions. I guess i'll jus have to talk to mum to seek for opinion. anyone there to tell me what to do?

At this point of time, a particualr song came passing through my mind. its entitled "shepard of my soul". i guess its kinda familiar to all PL lites. here it goes:

Shepard of my soul, I give you full control;
whereever you may lead, I will follow.
I have made the choice, to listen for your voice;
where ever you may lead, I will go.
Be it in a quiet pasture, or by a gentle stream;
the shpard of my soul, shall be my guide.
Should I face a might mountain, or a valley dark and deep;
the shapard of my soul, shall be my guide.

yes. although life has been bad, there are quite a number of great things which happened to me lately. Firstly, i had a wonderful luch with lsl,shangyi and hh this afternoon! cheerios! thanks for the company and we shall eat till our stomach burst the next time!

secondly, i've been talking and communicating loads with yq lately. thats a good sign alright, cos i'm still keeping the old friends close to my heart while making new friends in school. thirdly, amanda is gonna write me a letter and i think i'm gonna receive it soon. next, i'm keeping in contact with dear sining again! havent seen her in ages and I miss her! eeks. i think she misses me more!

Last but not least, i'll be celebrating hari raya tomorrow! more good and deilicious food on the way! I'm anticipating! =)) its not that i'm a malay, but my uncle has a malay wife and we're being invited to their house for the celebration tomorrow!

It was PL's founder's day last week and we went to paya lebar methodist church for the service. I miss PL and and the singspiration. You know I sang my hearts out and that was the first time I heard people singing the school anthem with pride!

We got to wear the academic gown which was kinda impressive and grand!

These are my very good freinds from PL:
me,leanmay(my lab partner),serene and sylvia!


We were still looking so fresh in the morning! the service was great and I enjoyed it alot.
TA-DA! its us again, after the entire service!


and you know lean may and sylvia became mentally unstable that they wanted to kill each other!


alright. money is the root of all evil. they wanted the money for themselves!


so much so about my nonsense. I was really nrevous when i went up to stage to collect the dummy cert and my book prize cos my shoe almost fell off. But i remained calm though i sense that the pastor was laughing at me.well. maybe i was over sensitive. Heres one last picture:
some of the PL-lites


After the service, I went back to nanyang for open house! Open house was rather interesting! serene and I brough laingyu and freinds around the school! YAY! met up with YQ after that and we had dinner at chomp chomp! YQ treated us to stingyrae and I treated them to roti prata! we'll meet up soon and i promise not to lend her my ezlink card. it was so embarrassing! i shant elaborate about it.

The promo results were released in the afternoon. I thank God that many of my good friends managed to pass. However, there are some of my close friends who're not yet there. I hope the papers which they're getting back tomorrow will be able to pull their marks up! then we'll be able to promote together and continue with our "chair-rolling" legend! you three know who you are, you guys will be in my prayers! then when all of us get promoted, dont forget about our promotional buffet! all the best!

PW is driving me nuts and all of us jus cant stand the sight of him.wake up boy, i dont wanna ask pris,serene and sihui to shout our slogan at you! eeks.

Replies to the tags:
RJ: HEY RJ! i'll link you soon! and good luck for bio tomorrow! we'll be there for you!
Huifang: hi twinnie! i miss oeister! justina said junru wanted us to go to his house for another bbq! YAY!
laingyu: its my pleasure 2 bring U ard my school. doing my part as ur lovely senior =))
Cindy: HEYHEY! i miss you! promise us 2 participate in superstar the next time ya?! JIA YOU!
Adeline: HEY KONG! shh.foo is my idol lo! better than your jy and daniel kong!haha! lets meet up soon. i know you miss me!

The promotional exams are finally over and we're enjoying two full days of marking day! the LEP paper on friday was a killer- i dont know what to expect. yesyes. i know. i expect to do badly, but i really dont want to fail that badly.alright, so much so about LEP. econs aint that good either. i doubt i can pass,but i'll pray hard! English lit is a little better, but my unseen is terrible! now maths,i think i can pass! YAY!

Anyway, went back to school on saturday for OSLE meeting. It was kinda fun cos shangyi,pris,serene and I came up with the "kkfc"club.(internal joke) then shangyi, the creative director, drew up a poster for k&k!it looks really good. i shall post it here when serene sends me the picture! we had lucnh together at the beehoon stall opposite zhonghua. it has been a long time since we went there. we started off with this topic that vs boys are irritating and everyone was sharing about our unhappy encounter with those fellow.(ok, with the exception of shangyi, she was protesting all the way).

Went out with wenna and mum yesterday! It has been a long long time since i went to town.i'm deprived. bought a white skirt and shirt for founders day. serene and i will be wearing the same white shirt-yes.that wulaoshi shirt! everyone would be so white and serene commented that we would look like a particular party! yes-true! I'm looking forward to founders day! then i shall be able to see leanmay and liangs!so till then! wenna jus sent me some soundtracks from the forbidden city! i love the forbidden city- i think all Singaporeans should be proud of our own local production! Dick lee, a wonderfully talented man indeed!